好久没写了~~

都快忘了当初为何要开blog~~

是贪新鲜，还是纯粹的想记录自己的心情?

是为了与她有共同的话题，还是........

其实现在这一切都不重要了~~

重要的是，"我还没把它关了~~ "

很难相信自己会保留这个blog那么久~~

我没我想象中爱记录东西，包括心情，

我不喜欢一成不变，但不能不接受一成不变，

我不喜欢身不由己，但入笼中雀般生活着。

也没我想象中有不变得毅力~~ 

我喜欢千变万化，缺不可以千变万化，

我喜欢自由自在，缺没有自由的生活。。。

虽然这一切的一切都是那么的让我不喜欢，

但都不是让我放弃生活下去的借口~~ 

生活充满了不愉快，愉快的人，事，物，

但这才是组成生活的重要事物~~

不管你/我/他/她,喜欢/不喜欢/接受/抗拒现在所拥有的一切，

切记不可放弃自己的生命。。
你的生命不是属于你的，是属于你父母，家人与朋友的。
你只是拥有使用权，并没有所有权。

所以你没有权力去终止自己的生命！！
请珍惜生命，珍惜身边的人，事，物~

P/S ：严重离题了。。忘了自己想要写什么了

吓死我了。。。

昨天心情有点不好。。
什么事就不提了。。
晚上和朋友去散散心，
期间还是和她争吵中。。
之后去吃东西。。
吃完后，朋友忽然变得出气多过入气。。
吓到我们～～
赶紧送他去医院～～
他说心脏有问题～～
感觉上好像快逝世了。。。
吓得我～～～
可是我却不能表露出害怕的表情，因为这样朋友们会更加害怕～～
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幸好朋友没有事～～
过后就回家睡觉了。。。累到～～～～

我最快乐的生日。。

今天早上醒来后，就一直在期待下午的出去～～
Dear，你该懂我期待什么吧？？
^_^
下午1点载Ta去1st Avanue看Ta很想看的一部戏～～
“爱”
看到戏名应该知道是什么类型的戏啦。。
没错就是爱情片了。。
到了那边，一买到戏票就看到了好朋友～～
向&蓉
他们也和我一样喔～去拍拖看“爱”～～
好巧合哦～～
在戏院里当然和Ta亲亲我我啦～～
XDDDDDDDDDDDD
Ta一直骂我坏蛋～～
是的，我很坏但是我只对Ta坏。。。
Ta哭了。。不是我弄哭的喔。。那是感动的泪。。
其实我也差点就哭了。。
XD

看戏完了，刚好有人在底楼跳舞。。
和Ta过去看看一下下后，
就带Ta去海边。。。
嘿嘿嘿～～
去了旧关仔角，在堤边聊心事。。
才发现原来我们对彼此的感情不知不觉已那么深。。

过后就去我家吃晚餐～～
Dear,我是否很霸道啊。。。
逼你吃饭～～
之后去看我下载的戏，
但是才看一点点就去睡觉了。。
只是睡觉！！

睡醒了，又和Ta亲亲一下。。
就送Ta回家。。
回到半路，摩托爆胎。。
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只好推摩托去Ta家楼下停放咯。。
之后叫朋友来载我去玩咯。。。

不好意思啊，Dear。。
顾着玩没回复你讯息。。
对不起喔～～
今天谢谢你了。。。

亲爱的，我爱你～～

今天做工，同事突然问我有没有女朋友。。

同事A : 你有女朋友了吗？
Me : 有啊。。怎么了吗？
同事A : 那你们搞过了吗？
Me : 没有，有问题哦？
同事B : 你们在一起多久了？
同事A : 为何不上她喔？？
Me : 三个月了。。 为何要上哦？
同事A : 你交女朋友不就是为何上吗？
Me : 不是。。虽然我有想过，但是没有行动。。
同事B : 你不会是“不能”吧？
Me : 不是啦。
同事A : 那为何呢？
Me : 我从没问过她这种事的啦。。 毕竟我们才交往不久。。 而且我们是非公开的。。而且我不想让她误会我是为了这种事才和她在一起。。
同事A : 那下次带你去泰国玩玩。。嘿嘿～
Me : 还是不要吧。。我不想做对不起她的事。。
同事B : 好咯。。不要后悔咯。。很好玩的喔~~


我写出来是想说为什么总有人会把这种事情看得那么轻松，
好像游戏一样，完了就算什么事都没有了。。
我接受不到咯。。我只会和我认定了的那位发生这种事。。

快乐的一天～～

今天和Dear去Queensbay Mall看戏。。。
在戏院里我和Dear亲嘴咯。。。
哈哈～～好开心哦·～
其实那时我很怕Ta会拒绝的
但是Ta没。。
嘻嘻～～
谢谢你的允许哦～～
可惜戏院里暗暗的看不到Dear脸红的样子。。
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就写到这里啦。。
不然Dear会碎碎念的。。
说我这么迟还不睡觉。。。

today is a happy day~~

Today go out v my lovely dear~~~
go whr??
go queensbay mall watch I ♥ HongKong2....
after watch this funny movie...
we go makan 1st at wong kok hongkong restauran...
XDD
my dear eat eh wantan mee too dry liao...
but it's still looked like very delicious....
after that go shopping...
although while we are shopping there was something unhappy happen...
but to me thats is a good thing...
it made we more closer....
made me more understand women...
thanks u dear~~~

after that we go 1st avenue...
so many petrol.. XDD
go thr shopping again...
buy a eye mask for my dear...
bcuz she almost wan transform into Panda liao....
i dunwan she kena send to china la...
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so i buy the mask for her...
haha...
after we go having dinner....
bring she go Jalan Burmah Green House eat Bak Kut Teh...
the food she like eat eh....
haha...
i so sayang my dear right bo???


write until here la...
if i keep writing my dear sure scold me why so late still din sleep...


ps:
today i sipek happy for wat u have done to me in the cinema,dear~~~

很臭

很臭很臭很臭的臭豆腐

Alvin~~~~~~~

haha...
today go watch Alvin & the chipmunks 3 v her....
off course v two more frenz....
so happy eh...
sit couple seat v her n......
dun think too far o..
juz have a lunch v her onli la....
actually i dunwan eat eh...
so i order a combination set for her...
drink n main sure is for her liao eh...
then the other i eat...
after order i go get a phone call to my frenz...
after that when i back to the seat, the food is serve...
i kena shock...
y??

becuz she order a tomyam fried rice for me or for her i dunno la...
however i eat the tomyam fried rice...

although i dislike eat eh....

after having lunch,

we go shopping...

but din go whr oso...

juz walk here walk thr then tiok back home liao....

a little bit dun wan let her go back eh...
but i respect her decision...
so i send her back lur...
but when sending her go back...
it seen go raining at air itam so we stop at Time Square....
oso walk a while....
then tiok continue send her go back....


the very very very very very unlucky thing~~~~~

is when almost reach her house thr...

is raining again!!!!

WTF!!!!!!

however i still continue send her back without stop...

after reach her house thr n she going up...

i realise that the rain stop....

>< sipek angry!!! why?? the 老天爷 look likes playing me lur!!!!

EOS 500D

2day go HYS watch their 闭营礼...
although when i arrive is almost finish...
but i still enjoy the 气fen there...
and then there got a helper gv me a Canon 1000D

and call me to help take photo....
my feeling Extremely happy...
although this is not my favorite Camare....
but i still happy...

My favorite Camera is this one....
down this one...
Canon EOS500D...
Love it....
XDD

Plurk...

Wat is plurk??
i dunno...
i create bcuz she oso play...
however i try to play oso lor...
XDD

my dear... u seen very weird la...

can u tell me wat happen to u bo??
today morning until u work.
is still ok..
but after u finish work,
u seen very weird liao..
wat happen to u??
or something happen to u?
would u mind to tell me?

今天。。。

今天我们很少讯息。。。。
是我的不好。。。
因为我心情不是很好，忽略了你。。
对不起。。。

过后我有问你要一起去看戏吗？
你的回答给我的感觉是。。。
很不想去。。。
我不懂你的想法，
我知道你爱说反话。。。
但那一刻，我真的很不开心。。。
我之后又问你情侣椅要吗？
结果又在一次伤了我的心。。。
你真的只把我当朋友？
如果是，那我明白了。。。

sorry......

these days i seen like juz knw said sorry to u...
actually i hv too many things dunno how to tell u...
if i tell u u sure will angry me,
but if i dun tell u, if u knw sumday u will more angry me...
i oso dunno wat i write nw...
juz can said sorry...

i knw i already over the line for being a frenz...
but i juz take care abt u...

i dunwan being a frenz...
i will go learn how to do that thing...
wait me can?

AH!!!!~~~~~~~

today should b a happy days....
cuz can go pasar malam v u...
unfortunetely, raining that time...
so u juz go back your home...
after that i discover my phone was no battery already...
on that time i thinking,
if i din go back home then i can't sms v u...
but if i go back home u will worry abt me...

after i reach home..

i saw yr msg...

sorry let u worry abt me...

after i bath....
i start EMO....
became moody...
sms u oso cincai onli...

i said sorry again to u..

i knw u already gv me the answer...
but i never hv the experience to追求 girl...
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dunno wat should i do nw....
makes me emo n moody onli...

gud 9~~

i think i too greed already...
monday juz c u onli,
nw i wish to c u again...
so i hope i can c u in my dream la...

gud9,my "frenz"....

29th....... sorry make u unhappy...

Today.....
after i go 1st avenue..
we talk somethings make we both emo....
on that time i really really wan to tell u...

"give me a chance..

let us both make the result became wat u wan....

I knw i nt perfect, i nt handsome, no $$$..

i oso knw we nt much topic can talk..

but i can promise u.... i'll stand by nearly 24hours to sms v u...

except when i sleep , driving , eating or bathing...

i wont like the past alwiz no $$ to sms v u..

i'll do wat ever i can do to make u happy...

so would u give me a chance?"

but i din said it to u..
i knw u scare to get hurt again...
so i wait...
but u said it that worth?
i cant answer u...
everyone's views is different...

after that i very less reply your sms,

bcuz i dunno i should said wat + my phone no battery...
u said nvm...

but i knw it doesn't like wat u said...
u scare i oso scare...
is that if we togather face the problem,
we won't scare anymore?
i wish to knw the answer..
u said answer is find out by ourself..
which mean a cue 4 me??
that u gv me the chance??
i dun wan to guess, i scare once we break the line..
we even cant b frenz...
juz can b the most familiar stranger....

Ps: dun comment this time... I dunwan knw your ans...

[Ktv]黃小琥 不只是朋友

My 1st time in TGV...

Today we go TGV watcching movie.....
we go watch Puss In Boots~~
When buy ticket, dunno y i buy the couple sits...
Kena shocks by myself....
haha... juz mad...

then we go take a round in 1st avenue....

she saw many friends...

oh my god...

all her friend thought i was her BF...

m i juz look like her BF???

感觉.....一种看不到,碰不到,

但存在在这个世界...
对你的感觉,

我...... 我不懂怎样形容....
像朋友但又像情侣.....

so so so excited~~~

today so early tiok wake up liao....
bcuz 2day can go out v u...
XD

mayb u will think i ki siao liao...
but i really hapy o~~~
hahaha....

Feeling~~

i dunno u hv the same feeling v me or not...
but i really hv that kind of feeling.....
as the movie (YOU ARE THE APPLE OF MY EYE),

曖昧is wat the feeling between us for nw....

i quite like this kind of feeling,

but i not sure wat is your feeling....

is all wat i wan to say today~~